Lost

Where to start? It's been over 5 months since I've written a blog post, and a ton has happened in that amount of time... During the winter semester I was off-track (which should probably mean that I would have had more time to blog then I do now...). But, like I said in my last post, I'm really good at procrastinating, and blogging just felt like a good way to do it.

Anyway, during the winter, I got a job working at a call center, which I really really didn't like. If I can get away with it, I'm never going to do that again. I also did a lot of volunteering at the school. I was an "unofficial TA" for the Animal Handling and Behavior class. You can't get paid when you are off-track, so I just did it for fun. I also taught a Horsemanship class, which was a lot of fun. It's crazy how teaching someone to ride a horse makes you a better rider, because you actually have to think about what you're doing, and why you're doing it. I was also still the Relief Society President, which took up a lot of time, but it was an amazing experience. I actually kind of miss it now... Other than that though, I pretty much just socialized, met new people, made new friends, and had fun. It was a great semester. Sadly though, I didn't get any pictures. :(

Life now is kind of crazy. Have you ever just felt completely lost, like you have no idea where you're supposed to be going in your life? That's about where I am right now. I don't even know where I'm going to be a couple of months from now. I don't know whether to stay in Rexburg and try to get a job for the summer, or if I should move back home for the first time since I started school and help my parents around the house and with the horses. If I stay in Rexburg, then I need to find a place to live, and probably start looking for a job right now. And, I need to figure out where to live in the Fall. Or, I could go on a mission. If I did that, then I would need to decide whether to leave right away, or if I should go to school Fall semester and leave when I'm off-track in the winter. Or, I've thought about doing something similar to what my old roommate, Abigail, did. She went to Peru while she was off-track and did humanitarian work. I feel like I could do that and do a lot off missionary work. Or, I could choose not to go on a mission and just finish school, which would mean finding an internship for this winter. I also considered going to BYU-Hawaii for a year, but Caitlin tells me that's probably not a good idea, seeing as they don't even have my major there... I also have no idea what I want to do "when I grow up". Everyone keeps asking me, and the only thing I can say is that I don't know, just something with animals. I would love to just train horses, but there's no money in that, and I don't need to have a college education for that, so what's the point of even graduating? I feel like I should probably do something with the education I'm getting, but I just don't know what that 'something' is... ... ... Basically, I'm super frustrated and stressed out, and wish I still had a plan so I could just do it.

Anyways, now that you've gotten a little piece of what's going on in my mind, I'll end on a happy note. A couple weeks ago, Alexis came into town, so her, Brittany, Abigail, and I had an old roommate reunion and went to Texas Roadhouse. It was fantastic! I miss them so much!

Me and Brittany and Texas Roadhouse

 I'll be sure to post again and let you know what I decide to do with my life. Until then though, I guess we'll all just go on one day at a time. :)